No More Lucky Day

Today was one of those days where anything that could go wrong would go wrong - a true Murphy's Law day. My allergies worsened these past couple days. I was taking disolvable Benadryl, Claritin and some other disolvable allergy tablet. I am very allergic to cats and this onslaught of allergic reaction was probably due to Lucky Day. I resembled a clogged up rudolf the red nose reindeer with puffy irritated red eyes. I have rashes all over my forehead and cheeks. And worse, it itches! My nose itch, my eyes itch, my face itch, my skin itch. Nothing I took alleviated the allergic reaction to Lucky Day. I even had to use my inhaler. I get very asthmatic when my allergies intensify.

My little girl was so frightened of "Lucky Day", that she would not be in the same room as he. So I had to clean the the cage up with one hand and hold Lucky Day in the other arm, sneezing and nose running, while my little girl hid out in her room. Then I'd run outside, take a sniff of my inhaler and breathe in the fresh air. Even now as I am typing this, I feel as if I have aged 20 years. My skin feels so rough from the scratching. The fine wrinkled lines appear to stretch from my eyes all the way to my ears.

Last night, I swallowed about 6 allergy tablets so I could sleep. I woke up at 2:15 am this morning because I couldn't breathe. I couldn't swallow, either. My throat felt swollen. I reached for my inhaler and spent the majority of the morning soaking/napping in a warm bath. I got Tianna ready for school, put enough water and food for Lucky Day and closed his cage door shut. (The cage door is located on top of the cage).

All day at work, I was just plain lethargic. When the clock struck 4:15 pm, I left to gas up for the road. But somehow, instead of gasing up, old habits took over and I found myself driving home. I drove the one hour home to Paso, picked up my little girl from daycare and within 2 blocks, my car sputtered to a halt. We walked half an hour to a gas station that didn't have a container for us. We had to walk another half hour to a Rite Aid to borrow a container and walk back the half hour to get gas. Then walk another half hour back to the car. I was a messs... holding the container of gas in one hand, dragging my little girl (who kept complaining the whole time about how far it was) and sneezing/running nose (I'm allergic to grass/pollen..etc). Also, the stress exacerbated the allergies. By the time I got back home two hours later, I was just a complete mess physically and mentally. I was drained.

I went to check on Lucky Day. To my astonishment, the cage door was opened and he was gone! GONE! OH MY GOSH!!! NO NO.. so I checked all over the apartment. In my lethargicness this morning, I forgot to latch the cage door!! Tianna at the same time was screaming all over the apartment, hopping on the dinner table, trying to hide from the rabbit. I'm stressed and sneezing and at the same time hollaring at Tianna to stop screaming. I search all over the place..and finally I hear a little scratching noise. I looked behind my bookcase and there he was, the cute little devil. Tianna rushes off the table into her room. I was able to lure Lucky Day with some banana and placed him back into his cage and latched it shut.

I knew what I had to do. This couldn't go on anymore. I called up the breeder and we talked and arranged for me to return Lucky Day. We met an hour later. Lucky Day was such an adorable little rabbit and with me, he would have to be caged up because Tianna was just too scared. He shouldn't be caged up like that. He needs to have a place run around freely and little kids that will love and play with him. Another family would give him a better home. Tianna hasn't even petted him yet. :(. Driving home, I felt saddened. I had fun holding Lucky Day, washing him and combing his hair. I had fun feeding him and looking after him. He even slept in my room because I was scared he might be lonely out in the livingroom (hence my waking up to an asthmatic attack).

Well, its 9:30 pm. I just finished vacuuming the whole apartment and mopping the kitchen and bathroom floors. I am aching for a bath and then bed. But I can't help thinking how much I have failed .... :(